You are doing amazingly well..

Life is full of surprises and how you handle those surprises is a great way to measure the person that you are becoming.  Surprises are those situations you didn't create purposefully, or they are that which you created purposefully, but didn't expect to become your reality on a conscious level.  Creating for yourself is what you are so good at doing in this physical reality.  What you believe about yourself, in your heart, is what you live.  The path you are on is the path you have chosen with your heart. 

We speak to you about your heart often because it is the part of you that makes your reality.  It is the place where emotion begins and it is with feeling that you create.  So, it is your heart that is continuously creating -- creating for you.  You are living that which is in your heart.  It makes perfect sense to love yourself.  It makes perfect sense to walk through this day with the awareness of your heart and understand what it is you have created for yourself.  It makes perfect sense to look at this day in order to understand how you really feel about you. 

If you have created less than joy, why have you created something less than who you really are??