The more you don't want something, the faster it comes at you..

We know you want!  We know you do.  We also know you don't want as well.  So choose where you want to be focused.  Choose it and consult your heart for that is where you will have the ability to truly siphon out the thoughts which bring you that which you clearly do not want, but keep experiencing. 

Another thing for you to consider is the fact that you might really want something that your Inner Being (High Self) knows will be in opposition to you having a more joyful life experience.  If this is so, your free will wins, but your Inner Being can offer contrast to you.  This is sometimes where confusion can enter.  Your emotional body can act out, so to speak, when your Inner Being is offering emotion because what you find you are wanting is in conflict with what you chose for this lifetime before entering physical body.  If you so choose to continue on the path you didn't plan, your free will wins. 

We are just offering support because we love you so much..