The communication you want so badly is sometimes being blocked..

It is being blocked by the decisions you are making.  When you choose to live with veracity, you will have that sense of the awakening you are asking for. 

Asking is only part of the communication.  You must then begin to listen and then follow what it is you know in your heart to be the path you are to follow, in order to get those answers.  As long as you are following what it is your ego is directing you towards, you will continue to block the way of your higherself.

Ask and follow your heart..